'Pomes' I wrote

- - -
Numb.

Devoid of emotion.
Lacking any feelings.
Stuck in an endless fog.

Trapped inside my body.
Begging to be let out.
Kicking and screaming 'No!'

Metal against my skin.
Finally I feel it.
My essence leaking out.

I am being let loose.
The pain searing through me.
Blood staining the carpet.

Tears flowing down my face.
Happy that I can feel.
That it hurts so badly.

I'm not numb anymore.

- - -
Pain.

I hide.
In my head, in my heart.
Encasing them in a shell
of emptiness.

I scream.
So hard my lungs will explode.
So loud my ears feel like
they will burst.

I cry.
The pain is too much.
I cannot handle this
anymore.

I cut.
Paperclip scratching me.
The scars on my skin
opening again.

I run.
Away from my life.
Away from my feelings
right to you.

I open.
The shell slowly cracking.
Your touch bringing me
out again.

I fall.
Into your arms, your eyes.
Letting you wash away
my fears.

I sigh.
My pain slowly fading.
But still remaning, for you
to heal me.

My pain.
My fear, my hurt, my screams.
My scars, my blood, my tears.
All yours.

- - -
Fear

Curled up into a ball.
Shivering and shuddering.
Trying not to cry.
Looking into the darkness.
Letting it comfort me.
Wishing you were here.

Hold me close.
Whisper words of comfort.
Never leave.

Destroy this thing inside me
This monster that rends my mind useless.
This thing that slowly kills me.

My Fear.